Out with the Old and in with the New!!

A friend's attempt at starting her blog made me decide to update mine and maybe even keep it updated this year. I have many people commenting how I must be superwoman to be able to homeschool 4 kids, work on my master's in professional counseling and be in counseling myself for my own junk. I am not superwoman, but I am powered by the One and Only who gives me superwoman strength to get through a day. Today is the last day of the year 2011 and it has been a year of many challenges and changes. The biggest change for me personally was to go from being in counseling consistently for about 2 days each week to my counselor (also my spiritual mother) moving to another state over a thousand miles away and attempting to do our counseling over the phone. It hasn't worked very well and that has caused me to travel to California, where she lives, 3 times this year and her to travel back here 3 times also. I am right now preparing to travel there in January to spend some much needed time with her and get some good bonding and counseling time in---I can't wait!!

The last couple of weeks have given me some much needed down time to re-evaluate how our homeschooling is going and what needs changing. Well.......pretty much everything needs changing. It has been a struggle just to get the basics done, which is not what I want. So, I am trying to set up a schedule and take a serious look at our curriculum to see what is working and what is not. In the meantime, we have decided to let our son who is in 8th grade attend public school. I really do not want to do this but feel that it maybe what he needs.

So, as this year closes and I look back on all of the changes I hope that the good outweighs the bad. My prayer is that this next year will bring even better things and a light at the end of my tunnel as far as my own counseling goes.

The end of the year blahs

Someone told me that I need to start writing more and brush up on my skills before I start writing my book. I thought yah, I have this blog I never write on and I should probably start. So here goes.....

We are starting to get those end of the year blahs, although I don't know why because I announced the other day that we are going to school year round. I have to just so we can get it all done. I love making schedules but have a horrible time sticking to them and therefore we end up, like we are now, with a ton of schoolwork left to do and the end of a "normal" school year just around the corner. It is definitely my fault because I tend to let things slide when I am having a bad day or things in my life just get too busy.

I bought a bunch of new curriculum at the convention last weekend thanks to Gregg's parents who gave us some cash. I am siked about all I got. Alot of it we can start now and so I am busy making out schedules, of course, and dreaming about how much the kids are going to learn. I hope the dream doesn't turn into a nitemare.

It's all coming Together

I am almost done buying our school curriculum for this year. It's been hard to choose from all of the good homeschool curriculum out there, but I am finally done with the choosing part. My "BIG" plans of starting school (mini-school) didn't work out. The boy's heads just aren't in "school mode" right now and they need more time to just be kids for now.

Our family is still in limbo with hubby living and working in another state while we wait to sell the house here. It's been just over a year since he finally got the job. We are blessed to have him working but wish we could all be together under one roof. Only God knows when we will all be together. Until then we do our best, with His help, to maintain our family.

I am still challenged by trying to juggle my own school work as I study towards my masters in counseling and "work" on my own issues in counseling. I am starting to be more open about my dissociative identity disorder because I feel there are others out there who believe they are alone and they are not. I know that through my own pain and abuse the Lord can redeem what has been lost to help others.

First Days

Today I have a 10 page paper due in my Human Growth and Development class that I have no motivation to do. All I would like to do is do more investigating for curriculum to use with the boys this year and schedule out in my new planner what we have. I am desperately trying to get motivated but it is not happening.

I told the boys that since the three older kids started summer school we could be doing some light school now too. They were not happy. Soccer dude whined that it was summer and we shouldn't have to do school. Little man stomped off to his room and sulked on his bed. Fedex puckered his lip and tried to get me to back down, but no way. I have found that the summer has placed into their hands too much time to get into trouble and on each other's nerves. So today is the unofficial first day of mini-school.

I now need to get motivated to get my own school work done. I can't say that I don't blame them for wanting to not do school. I am feeling the same way.